Try to Believe

"It is difficult. I can't do that. I won't be able to do that."

These statements have become common statement found in our life. I have also once stated it when I was a child. I want to write. I know I have so many things to be written down. But I don't know how to start writing. But then I deeply think about my self. How can I make real something that I've never want to try? I shouldn't let my self to be underestimated.

I want to be able to write what I've thought. Make it real, by writing it on a piece of paper. It's never mind if my writing is not loved by many. At least I've tried. At least I've learn.

I remember the first time I wrote the ideas in my mind. I didn't begin it with writing diaries, like any other people may do. I started it when I was on the first grade of Senior High School. I wrote some short stories. Give them to be read by my friends. Some of my friends like my stories. But they also give some critics to my works. For a while, I'm confident enough to write. I have no computer at home, so I brought it to the computer typing service. A woman typing my stories then said.

"They're good. You should have to send them to a literature magazine," she said.

It couldn't be imagined how happy I am. However, I have never sent them to any magazine or newspaper. I've read my writings again and again. The more I read it, the more I feel unsatisfied with them. And that's the reason, they are ended in a trash bin. Forgotten.

After a quite long vacuum, I began writing when I was on the second semester at Udayana University. I try writing two or three short stories and sent them to any competition. As I have thought, they are failed. Finally, a local newspaper give me a good chance of believing my self. I have written stories for Bali Post for many times, but I've got nothing. None of my stories are published. I almost desperate in writing while in advance, my last story is published, entitled "Suatu Fajar dengan Sakura"-"A Morning with Cherry Tree". That was the point. Since that time, I believe I can do it. I know I will make it some day. My biggest dream of being a good writer with published book. And until this day on, I keep it to be made real somehow.

I keep learning until today. I keep trying and keep believing in what I want. I know, being a good writer is not an easy thing to do. But at least the fact has taught me something. You should really understand what you want the most. If you just keep believing and trying, you know that faith will you a try. Something hard may be, until you think that you are no longer be able to bear with it. However, you have to believe that there will always be an end of everything. And prepare yourself well, to make it a good end.